My Relationship

In a million years I never would've thought that I would be engaged at the age of 19 :) And I never pictured that I would ever be able to do a long distance relationship. But here I am. And boy is it hard.

Last night Michael mentioned how if I was with him then he would take me with him to his friends house. And we could do normal couple things. And it was then that it dawned on me, that we'll never really get to experience that. And it made me really really sad. I think this relationship is really taking a toll on me. The emotional rollercoaster would be hard on anyone. I think I've cried more the past 4 months then I ever, ever had before. When I'm with him I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life. Because everything feels completely right. But when he leaves, it feels like I'm being ripped apart. It amazes me how much I've already begun to rely on him. I really wish we could get married sooner, because the sooner we get married the sooner we get to be together all the time. It's a hard realization to know that you really don't get to be with the man you love until the day you get married. It feels like in someways we're missing out on the fun dating part. And well perhaps we are, but in other ways I know our relationship is going to be stronger because of this. It forces us to communicate with each other. And be more understanding. And frankly no one would endure this long distance torture unless they absolutely loved each other. And boy do I love him and I know he loves me :) And that is what makes all this worth it!!

Thanksgiving!!

So last week was Thanksgiving. Wednesday morning I was so anxious and excited I could hardly stand it.

MY FAMILY WAS COMING!!!

I tried to think of anything I could do to pass the time, so I curled my hair lol.

I saw them drive up outside my window and without thinking I just ran out to the car and to them. All of a sudden I just felt this euphoric happiness. I really, really, really love my family. It wasn't until after I said hello that I realized I had locked my keys in my room. And I was now locked out of my building. Lucky for me my roommate Brittany hadn't left yet. So I started throwing pinecones at the window. She didn't respond. So finally I ran to the back of the building and banged on our back door. Lucky for me Brittany answered and it all turned out well. :)

Next time I think I'll remember my keys.

Then I took my family to Cafe Rio, my favorite place ever, and they loved it just as much as I did :)

Then we all went to Allyse's Bridal. I had tried dresses on before and had pretty much decided on one. But then as I'm walking up to the store I notice one in the window that I didn't notice before. It had everything that I wanted. So after I find my consultant I remind her of the one I really liked before and ask her to grab that one for me to try on, and then I ask if I could try that one on too. I put on the one I liked before on first, and my family loved it. But then I put on the other one and walked out, and it was amazing :) It looked like everything I ever dreamed of. And my mom LOVED it!! So right then and there I fell in love with my dress. My dad took lots of pictures and lots of video, we of course have to remember this momentous occasion!!

I then tried on tiara's and veils. And my mom and I decided on a tiara and a veil :) This was a very exciting moment in my life....the only person missing was Michael. But he of course couldn't see me in the dress, not until May 22nd.

My parents buy me the dress and then we finally get ready to drive to Salt Lake. Michael's plane gets in at 7. And it's only 4:30. I have to find something to do for 2 hours. At first it's easy, I help my grandma and hang out with my sister. And then we eat dinner. After that, there is still a half hour to wait. So I start wandering around the house. And then I keep staring at the clock, and boy was it a long half hour. Normally I have the internet to help me waste time :)

Finally it's time for me to leave. And when I arrive, I call Michael. And he's like oh I don't have my bag yet. So I sit at the passenger pickup for awhile. And then he's like look to the right. And when I look to the right I don't see anything, nothing at all. So I'm about to get mad at him in the phone and as I turn to the left there he is. He wanted to surprise me :) I was very very excited to see him. I jumped out of the car and ran to him. I love it when I'm with him!!! All at once I felt incredibly happy and everything just felt completely and perfectly right.

The weekend really was perfect. I had my family and Michael. And honestly I don't think life could've gotten much better. I LOVED Thanksgiving weekend :)